This photo was taken in 1978 (my best guess). I'm the little red-headed girl sitting on the floor. My mom is in the coral dress holding my sister, Jennifer. My dad is looking so young and stylin' in his black suit. The rest are my maternal aunts, uncles, cousins, and grandparents. So fab' in 70s garb!
Why the reminiscing? I've been reflecting on the strong women who came before me. My mom was extremely sick during all of her pregnancies, yet dinner was always on the table, the house was clean at the end of the day, and she never complained. My grandmother . . . same thing. She had seven children, worked full-time, and was probably the first to offer dinner or a helping hand to someone in need (never needing anything in return). What happened to genetics? Why am I so useless? In fact, I'm constantly thinking about how my ancestors in heaven must be shaking their fists in disbelief, saying, "She has it so easy! Why is she utterly incapable?" :)
Anyway, I'm not posting this in hopes of empathy or sympathy (based on previous pregnancies I knew what I was getting into). Besides, I know I'm hugely blessed. I'm just perplexed at my inability to cope well. So here's to me "bucking up" and getting over myself. Wish me luck! :)
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uhh... good luck I guess. :) I think you need to be not so hard on yourself though. You are doing the best YOU can do, no one else is judging. Saw your family at the dedication last night, cant believe how grown up your sibs are. :)
That is a classic picture. You look so cute! You are doing good. When it's just you and the kids home for dinner who care if you have cereal for dinner 5 nights in a row. Besides, you went to a birthday party, smiled, ate, talked, took care of your kids all the while feeling sick and yucky so that's a mission in itself!
Oh Lisa, I feel for you. I think it's tough of you to even make it through the days when you are so sick. And honestly, your kids will be fine, everyone will be fine if you don't eat balanced meals for a few months! I have to keep telling myself that I bring different strengths to my family than my mom brought to hers. I definitely don't measure up to her in lots of ways (Like you, I don't ever remember my mom staying in bed sick!) but I know I have _something_ to offer my kids, and that's why Heavenly Father sent them to me! (Well, that and they teach ME a lot :)) I'm sure the same is true for you, so don't be too hard on yourself. I hope you get feeling lots better soon, though!
Yes the 70s were definitely rocking. Hope you get feeling better.
Oh Lisa, I wish there was something I could do for you!! I hope this pregnancy goes by quickly!!
Take a page from my book...I always had dinner on the table...via the pizza guy!
You are awesome! Hang in there! It is so worth it.
What a fun picture. Your parents age well by the way. I believe my former kissing buddy is on the far right in the blue polyesters. No wonder I fell for that QT. ha ha :) I hope the feeling icky part of your pregnancy is short lived. Best wishes!
Congratulations on the pregnancy!! I think you need to stop being so hard on yourself!! If I were half as sick as you were when pregnant, Casen would be an only child for sure!! I was alwayws in shock when we worked together and you would go and throw up, brush your teeth, and then get back to work. Seriously amazing!! It's a different time and you are certainly no whimp! Good luck with this pregnancy and take it easy!!
What a fun photo! I relate on so many levels! I have been having similar feelings recently. I'm sure those superwoman genes are inside me somewhere--I just haven't figured out how to unlock them yet. If you figure it out, let me know. (I was going to say something about the genes skipping our generation, but technically we're in different generations so that theory is shot!) I'm also confident there is no fist shaking going on in heaven. Hang in there.
Congrats on being pregnant...even though it's really rough on you. I am so excited for you and jeramy, but sad you have to be so sick. wish I could be out there to help you.
ps-that is an awesome picture. you are so cute. I love old pictures with all the fun clothes. It's crazy to think someday our kids will be doing the same thing, looking at us saying, i can't believe they wore that!
Lisa - Deanne told me about your picture & post so I blog hopped over to read it...Don't be too hard on yourself! We come from some AMAZING women - Grandma Phoebe, Aunt Marie, your mom and so on...all great women - and you are no exception! Life is so different now and we face different challenges. I'm sure you are doing the best you can and I'm sure you are an amazing mother and wife!! Hang in there!!
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